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Ana´s Song

Nur einen Kuss

von der bästen Bend der Wält^^ 

Nur einen Kuss – mehr will ich nicht von dir.
Der Sommer war kurz, der Winter steht vor der Tür.
Wenn du mich nicht küsst, bleibst du vielleicht allein,
und wer will schon im Winter alleine sein?
Ich bekam meinen Kuss und gab ihr mein Herz dafür.

Bald darauf kam ein Fremder in unsere Stadt.
(Doch ich glaubte an die Liebe)
Ich weiß nicht, was sie in ihm gesehen hat.
(Und ich glaubte an die Liebe)
Sie begann sich sehr für ihn zu interessieren.
Wir waren ein Paar, was sollte schon passieren?
Doch bald darauf wendete sich das Blatt.

Beim ersten Schnee waren wir nicht mehr zusammen,
(Doch ich glaubte an die Liebe)
w
eil der fremde Mann kam und sie mir wegnahm.
(Ich glaubte trotzdem an die Liebe)
Ein paar Wochen lang nur strahlte sie vor Glück.
Dann ging er fort und sagte, er sei bald zurück.
Sie wartete noch, als schon der Frühling kam.

Das Gras wurde grün, sie wurde dünn und blass,
(Denn sie glaubte an die Liebe)
w
eil sie jeden Tag weinend am Fenster saß.
(Viel zu groß war ihre Liebe)
Ob sie wohl an ihn dachte, als sie schließlich starb?
Ich legte eine rote Rose auf ihr Grab.
Sag mir, worauf ist in dieser Welt Verlass?

Monatelang reiste ich durch das Land.
(Sonst war mir nicht viel geblieben)
Es war schon fast Herbst, als ich ihn endlich fand.
(Da stand ihre große Liebe)
Ich lud ihn ein zum Trinken, bis es dunkel war.
Er wankte zwar, doch ahnte nichts von der Gefahr,
bis ich ihn dann an einem Baum festband.

Der Vollmond ging auf, mein Messer war kalt wie er.
(Sag mir, glaubst du an die Liebe?)
"E
rinnerst du dich? Es ist nicht so lange her …"
(Das ist der Preis für deine Liebe)
Ich schnitt den Fremden auf – bloß ein kleines Stück,
und ich holte mir mein Herz zurück.
Dann kehrte ich heim; doch geküsst habe ich nie mehr.
(Denn ich glaube nicht mehr an die Liebe)
Nie mehr.
(Nicht mehr an die Liebe)
Nie mehr.
Niemals mehr.

24.1.08 19:57


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Natalie Imbrugila

Come September

 

Her bones will ache

Her mouth will shake

And as the passion dies

Her magic heart will break

She fly to France

Cause there's no chance

No hope for Cinderella

Come September

 

Everything wrong

Gonna be alright

Come September

 

Her violet sky

Will need to cry

Cause if it doesn rain

Then everything will die

She needs to heal

She needs to feel

Something more than tender

Come September

 

Everything wrong

Gonna be alright

Come September

 

The souls that burn

Will twist and turn and find-

you in the dark

No matter where you run

She's made her mark

But lost her spark

And what she pushing for

She can remember

 

Everything wrong

Gonna be alright

Come September

 

Her eyes surrender, her cry a-

crying shame

Coming undone is she ever gonna-

feel the same

 

She will run

She's gonna drink the sun

Shining just for you

Instead of everyone

And so it goes

She抣l stand alone

And try not to remember

Come September

 

Everything Wrong

Gonna be alright

Come September
10.1.08 20:51


Mary Jane

von Alanis Morissette

 

What's the matter Mary Jane, you had a hard day

As you place the don't disturb sign on the door

You lost your place in line again, what a pity

You never seem to want to dance anymore

It's a long way down

On this roller coaster

The last chance streetcar

Went off the track

And you're on it.

I hear you're counting sheep again Mary Jane

What's the point of trying to dream anymore

I hear you're losing weight again Mary Jane

Do you ever wonder who you're losing it for

Well it's full speed baby

In the wrong direction

There's a few more bruises

If that's the way

You insist on heading

Please be honest Mary Jane

Are you happy

Please don't censor your tears

You're the sweet crusader

And you're on your way

You're the last great innocent

And that's why I love you

So take this moment Mary Jane and be selfish

Worry not about the cars that go by

All that matters Mary Jane is your freedom

Keep warm my dear, keep dry

Tell me

Tell me

What's the matter Mary Jane

5.1.08 20:00


Superchic[k]

 

Courage

 

I told another lie today

And I got through this day

Superchic No one saw through my games

I know the right words to say

Courage Like "I don't feel well"

"I ate before I came"

Then someone tells me how good I look

and for a moment

For a moment I am happy

But when I'm alone

No one hears me cry

 

I need you to know

I'm not through the night

Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light

I need you to know

That we'll be okay

Together we can make it through another day

I don't know the first time I felt unbeautiful

The day I chose not to eat

Alle What I do know is how I changed my life forever

I know I should know better

There are days when I'm okay

And for a moment

For a moment I find hope

But there are days when I'm not okay

And I need your help

So I'm letting go

 

I need you to know

I'm not through the night

Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light

I need you to know

That we'll be okay

Together we can make it through another day

You should know you're not on your own

These secrets are walls that keep us alone

I don't know when but what I know now

Together we'll make it through somehow

Together we'll make it through somehow

 

I need you to know

Alle I'm not through the night

Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light

I need you to know

That we'll be okay

Together we can make it through another day

 

 

Mut

 

Ich erzählte heute wieder eine Lüge

Und ich habe es durch den Tag geschafft

Niemand hat mich durchschaut

Ich wusste die richtigen Worte zu sagen

Wie „Ich fühle mich nicht gut“

„Ich habe schon gegessen“

 

Dann sagt mir jemand wie gut ich aussehe

Und für einen Moment

Für einen Moment bin ich glücklich

Doch wenn ich alleine bin

Hört mich niemand weinen

 

Du sollst wissen

Dass ich die Nacht noch nicht hinter mir habe

Manchmal fällt es mir schwer, mich dem Licht zu nähern

Du sollst wissen

Das es uns wieder gut gehen wird

Zusammen können wir einen weiteren tag überstehen

Alle

Ich erinnere mich nicht an die Zeit

In der ich mich das erste Mal hässlich fühlte

Den Tag an dem ich beschloss nicht zu Essen

Was ich weiß ist wie ich mein Leben für immer veränderte

Ich weiß ich sollte es besser wissen

Da sind Tage an denen ich Okay bin

Und für einen Moment

Für einen Moment finde ich Hoffnung

Doch da sind Tage wenn ich nicht Okay bin

Und ich brauche deine Hilfe

Darum lasse ich los

 

 

Du solltest wissen du bist nicht auf dich alleine gestellt

Ich weiß nicht wann aber was weiß ich jetzt

Ich weiß nicht wann aber was ich jetzt weiß

Zusammen schaffen wir das irgendwie

Zusammen schaffen wir das irgendwie

 

 

Beauty From Pain

 

The lights go out all around me

One last candle to keep out the night

And then the darkness surrounds me

I know I'm alive

But I feel like I've died

 

And all that's left is to accept that it's over

My dreams ran like sand through the fists that I made

I try to keep warm but I just grow colder

I feel like I'm slipping away

After all this has passed

I still will remain

After I've cried my last

There'll be beauty from pain

Though it won't be today

Someday I'll hope again

And there'll be beauty from pain

You will bring beauty from my pain

 

My whole world is the pain inside me

The best I can do is just get through the day

My life before is only a memory

I wonder why God lets me walk through this place

And though I can't understand why this happened

I know that I will when I look back someday

And see how You've brought beauty from ashes

And made me as gold purified through these flames

After all this has passed

I still will remain

After I've cried my last

There'll be beauty from pain

Though it won't be today

Someday I'll hope again

And there'll be beauty from pain

You will bring beauty from my pain

 

Here I am at the end of me (at the end of me)

Trying to hold to what I can't see

I forgot how to hope

This night's been so long

I cling to your promise there will be a dawn

After all this has passed

I still will remain

After I've cried my last

There'll be beauty from pain

Though it won't be today

Someday I'll hope again

And there'll be beauty from pain

You will bring beauty from my pain

 

 

Schön vom Schmerz

 

Die Lichter um mich herum gehen aus

Eine letzte Kerze um die Nacht fern zu halten

Und dann umgibt mich Dunkelheit

Ich weiße ich lebe

Doch ich fühle mich als wäre ich gestorben

 

Und alles was ich noch habe ist das Wissen, dass es vorbei ist

Meine Träume rinnen wie Sand durch die Fäuste die ich mache

Ich versuche warm zu bleiben doch ich werde nur kälter

Ich fühle mich, als würde ich abrutschen

Nachdem all dies vorbei ist

Will ich unbeweglich verbleiben

Nachdem ich zum letzten Mal geweint habe

Wird der Schmerz zu Schönheit

Auch wenn es nicht heute sein wird

Eines Tages werde ich wieder hoffen

Und aus dem Schmerz wird Schönheit

Du wirst Schmerz zu Schönheit machen

 

 

Meine ganze Welt ist der Schmerz in mir

Das beste was ich tun kann ist einfach durch den tag zu gehen

Wenn das Leben davor nur noch eine Erinnerung ist

Ich wundere mich warum Gott mich durch so einen Ort laufen lässt

Und trotzdem kann ich nicht verstehen, warum das passiert

Ich weiß ich werde es begreifen wenn ich eines Tages zurückblicke

Und sehe wie du aus Asche Schönheit geschaffen hast

Und mich zu Gold gemacht hast, das durch die Flammen gereinigt wurde

Hier und ich bin am Ende (am Ende)

Versuche mich an dem festzuhalten, was ich nicht sehen kann

Ich vergas, wie man hofft

Diese Nacht war so lang

Ich halte mich an dein Versprechen, es wird einen Morgen geben

 

 

 

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Bei YouTube findet man die Songs in tausend Varianten,

die meisten triggern...

1.1.08 16:33


Foo Fighters

Skin and Bones

Lately I've been measuring
Seems my time is growing thin
Wind me up and watch me spin
Watch me spin
Watch me spin

Skin and bones
Skin and bones
Skin and bones don't you know?

Skin and bones
Skin and bones
Skin and bones don't you know?

I'm just skin and bones

All worn out and nothing fits
Brennevin and cigarettes
The more I give the less I get
But I'm all set
I'm all set

Skin and bones
Skin and bones
Skin and bones don't you know?

Skin and bones
Skin and bones
Skin and bones don't you know?

I'm just skin and bones X5

Deep within this frame of mind
Heart of hearts oh valentine
Tell my mom I'm doing fine
Doing fine
Doing fine

Skin and bones
Skin and bones
Skin and bones don't you know?

Skin and bones
Skin and bones
Skin and bones don't you know?

Skin and bones
Skin and bones
Skin and bones don't you know?

I'm just skin and bones X4

I'm just skin and hey!

 

21.12.07 19:35


Eleanor McEvoy

Sophie

I
Sophie cannot finish her dinner
She says she’s eaten enough
Sophie’s trying to make herself thinner
Says she’s eating too much
And her brother says, "You’re joking,"
And her mother’s heart is broken
Sophie has a hard time coping
And, besides, Sophie’s hoping

CHORUS
She can be like all the other girls
Be just like all the other girls
Living in an ordinary world
Just to fit in, in the ordinary world
Just to fit in like an ordinary girl.

II
Sophie’s losing weight by the minute
How did things get this bad?
Sophie’s family, they don’t understand it
Gave her all that they had
And her sister won’t stop crying
'Cause her father says she’s dying
Sophie says she’s really trying
Problem is, Sophie’s lying.


CHORUS
She can be like all the other girls
Be just like all the other girls
Living in an ordinary world
Just to fit in, to the ordinary world
Just to fit in like an ordinary girl

How did she get this way?
How did she get this way?
Through trying to hide it.
What does it take to say,
What does it take to say
She’s dying, Sophie’s dying to …

CHORUS
....be like all the other girls
Be just like all the other girls
Living in an ordinary world
Just to fit in, to the ordinary world
Just to fit in and be like all the other girls
Be just like all the other girls
Living in an ordinary world
Just to fit in, to the ordinary world
Just to fit in like an ordinary girl.
 
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20.12.07 17:22


Sum 41

Pieces

 

I tried to be perfect, but nothing was worth it

I don't believe it makes me real

I thought it'd be easy, but no one believes me

I meant all the things that I said.

If you believe it's in my soul

I'd say all the words that I know.

Just to see if it would show

That I'm trying to let you know

That I'm better off on my own.

This place is so empty

My thoughts are so tempting

I don't know how it got so bad

Sometimes it's so crazy

That nothing can save me,

But it's the only thing that I have.

If you believe it's in my soul

I'd say all the words that I know

Just to see if it would show

That I'm trying to let you know

That I'm better off on my own.

I tried to be perfect it just wasn't worth it

Nothing could ever be so wrong

It's hard to believe me

It never gets easy

I guess I knew that all along.

If you believe it's in my soul

I'd say all the words that I know

Pieces Just to see if it would show

That I'm trying to let you know

That I'm better off on my own.

 

19.12.07 17:25


King Andora

Big Isn´t Beautiful

(Warnung: Möglicherweise gefällt Ihnen das Lied nicht!)

I want your heart shaped lips,lips

Cooler hula hips,

I want to feel my bones on your bones, baby,

I wear my heartache on my sleeve,

I love myself to much to see...

It haunts my dreams...

(It haunts my every dream)

When every boy wants a body to die for,

And every girl who's thin is his rival,

I wish I had a body to die for,

Skinny is sexy,

Big isn't beautiful.

I'm gonna shed me some skin,

Get me real real slim,

I want to feels my bones on your bones,

I am a teenage Drama Queen,

I throw my guts up for self-esteem...

It haunts my dreams...

(It haunts my every dream)

When every boy wants a body to die for,

And every girls who's thin is his rival,

I wish I had a body to die for,

Skinny is sexy,

Big isn't beautiful.

Ooh, ohh ohh...

Every boy wants a body to die for,

And every girl who's thin is his rival,

I wish I had a body to die for...

Skinny is sexy,

Sweet anorexia!

Skinny is sexy,

Big isn't beautiful!


19.12.07 17:20


Paper Bag

von Fiona Apple

I was staring at the sky, just looking for a star
To pray on, or wish on, or something like that
I was having a sweet fix of a daydream of a boy
Whose reality I knew, was a hopeless to be had
But then the dove of hope began its downward slope
And I believed for a moment that my chances
Were approaching to be grabbed
But as it came down near, so did a weary tear
I thought it was a bird, but it was just a paper bag
Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love
And I went crazy again today, looking for a strand to climb
Looking for a little hope
Baby said he couldn't stay, wouldn't put his lips to mine,
And a fail to kiss is a fail to cope
I said, 'Honey, I don't feel so good, don't feel justified
Come on put a little love here in my void,' he said
'It's all in your head,' and I said, 'So's everything'
But he didn't get it I thought he was a man
But he was just a little boy
Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love
Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love

17.12.07 14:53


Manic Street Preachers

-> Klick <- 

She is suffering

 

Beauty finds refuge in herself

Lovers wrapped inside each others lies

Beauty is such a terrible thing

She is suffering yet more than death

 

She is suffering

She sucks you deeper in

She is suffering

You exist within her shadow

 

Beauty she is scarred into man's soul

A flower attracting lust, vice and sin

A vine that can strangle life from a tree

Carrion, surrounding, picking on leaves

 

She is suffering

She sucks you deeper in

She is suffering

You exist within her shadow

 

Beauty she poisons unfaithful all

Stifled, her touch is leprous and pale

The less she gives the more you need her

No thoughts to forget when we were children

 

She is suffering

She sucks you deeper in

She is suffering

Nature's lukewarm pleasure

 

4st. 7lbs.

 

I eat too much to die

And not enough to stay alive

I'm sitting in the middle waiting

 

Days since I last pissed

Cheeks sunken and despaired

So gorgeous sunk to six stone

Lose my only remaining home

 

See my third rib appear

A week later all my flesh disappears

Stretching taut, cling-film on bone

I'm getting better

 

Karen says I've reached my target weight

Kate and Emma and Kristin know it's fake

Problem is diet's not a big enough word

I wanna be so skinny that I rot from view

 

I want to walk in the snow

And not leave a footprint

I want to walk in the snow

And not soil its purity

 

Stomach collapsed at five

Lift up my skirt my sex is gone

Naked and lovely and 5st. 2

May I bud and never flower

 

My vision's getting blurred

But I can see my ribs and I feel fine

My hands are trembling stalks

And I can feel my breasts are sinking

 

Mother trys to choke me with roast beef

And sits savouring her sole Ryvita

That's the way you're built my father said

But I can change, my cocoon shedding

 

I want to walk in the snow

And not leave a footprint

I want to walk in the snow

And not soil its purity

 

Kate and Kristin and Kit Kat

All things I like looking at

Too weak to fuss, too weak to die

Choice is skeletal in everybody's life

 

I choose my choice, I starve to frenzy

Hunger soon passes and sickness soon tires

Legs bend, stockinged I am Twiggy

And I don't mind the horror that surrounds me

 

Self-worth scatters, self-esteem's a bore

I long since moved to a higher plateau

This discipline's so rare so please applaud

Just look at the fat scum who pamper me so

 

Yeh 4st. 7, an epilogue of youth

Such beautiful dignity in self-abuse

I've finally come to understand life

Through staring blankly at my navel

 

~

Wieviel ist  4st. 7lbs. ?

10.12.07 17:35


Ana's Song (Open Fire)

von Silverchair(<-Link xD)

Please die, Ana
For as long as you're here, We're not
You make the sound of laughter
And sharpened nails seem softer
And I need you now, somehow
And I need you now, somehow

Open fire
On my needs designed
On my knees for you
Open fire
On my knees desires
What I need from you

Imagine pageant
In my head
The flesh seems thicker
Sandpaper tears corrode the film
And I need you now, somehow
And I need you now, somehow

Open fire
On my needs designed
On my knees for you
Open fire
On my knees desires
What I need from you

And you're my obsession
I love you to the bones
And Ana wrecks your life
Like an anorexia life

Open fire
On my needs designed
On my knees for you
Open fire
On my knees desires
What I need from you

Open fire
On my knees desire


Open fire

On my needs designed
On my knees for you

Ich liebe diesen Song!
Und der Clip ist einfach genial! Der Anfang mit dem Licht ist toll, wie sich sein Gesicht und sein Ausdruck dadurch verändert. Und wie schwach und zerbrechlich er ihm Rollstuhl aussieht bis er mit Power " Sandpaper tears corrode the filth" singt, aber dann zurückfällt... Ich finds auch gut, dass der Clip nicht triggernd ist (würde ja total an der Botschaft des Songs vorbei gehen).

Es wird eine Frau mit einem Waschzwang (->ES) gezeigt, die ihre Hände blutig wäscht (-> sich zu Tode hungert), weil sie in ihren Augen schmutzig sind (sich zu fett hält).

7.12.07 19:58





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